So many thoughts.
I am not sure if it is the end of pregnancy or just the fact that we are working at a feverish pitch to get in all that needs to be done in the next seven weeks.
I am desperate to get Katherine potty trained (or at this point, give up until after Jeremiah gets here).
I have church on the brain.
I have homeschool group and my friends there on my mind as well.
MY MIND FEELS LIKE MUSH!!!!
ALL THE TIME!!!
But here I am. Wanting to blog. Needing to blog. And still rambling on and on like a half crazy woman! But bear with me.
Here is what I am thinking tonight.
God loves us. We have to learn to depend on no more than that. If I fail at what He has called me to do then that is failure. Anything else is man driven. Expectations of men are just that, expectations. If I let them down it is because I am human and I make mistakes. But if I stay true to my convictions and the calling on my life, then I can’t worry about who is pleased and who isn’t.
When eternity stretches before me, it will be God I answer to not man.
I am also thinking about how I feel as though I am failing Katherine. Just being real here people, its what I am thinking. She is into everything, constant movement, messes and mayhem. She climbs, she spills, she dumps. All the time. I tell her no, I swat her hand or her diaper, I set her in time out. Nothing seems to be breaking the cycle. Am I not being consistant enough? What am I doing wrong? She doesn’t seem to be learning boundaries or how to occupy herself with toys and such. But she is so cute so melts my heart and I love how much time we have had to snuggle and read while I have been putting my feet up more.
I actually feel good about where my house is right now. Yes, my floor needs swept and I have a couple loads of laundry that could be washed, but over all it isn’t too bad and I am eight months pregnant. For that I actually feel good.
I am wondering what life will be like when I am homeschooling two, have a preschooler, a toddler, and a newborn. What will this baby be like? Calm and cuddly like most of our babies or fussy and colicy with acid reflux like Katherine. Poor Baby Kate cried more than she didn’t as a an infant. It was tiring and heartbreaking for this momma.
All right, that is enough for now. I think that is all of it. I have the pictures to post about the apple sauce and dried apples and the fruit roll ups. All of which turned out great! I hope those posts will be ready early next week. I also have posts about our school and home life that I want to get up. But all in God’s time. Thanks for hanging with me through this season of sparatic blogging. I hope to get more consistant soon!
God bless you all my dear friends.
I have two in homeschool, a preschooler (4), a toddler (almost 2), and a newborn (12 days old). I have been really nervous about handling it all. My mom and my husband have given me excellent advice about it, though. They say that life is learning and not to jump back into the formal stuff too soon. The kids aren’t going to suffer if they take off a few extra days from math. In fact, our relationship can only grow stronger from a few extra days of reading and snuggling on the couch. And when it is time to tackle school again, the Lord is with me!